Looklet

Currently into Looklet. In Looklet, we become a fashion stylist and it's fun! Really.

These are some of my... looks? :)



Hm maybe I'm not a good stylist but at least I had heaps of fun mix and matching those cool clothes. Hihi.


xo,

Ajeng.

Quote of The Day

If you can solve your problem, then what is the need of worrying? If you cannot solve it, then what is the use of worrying?

-Shantideva

Drama

Watched He's Just Not That Into You, and became very thoughtful.
Here's a part of something that's written in the case of the DVD. (read : synopsis)

Remember that really cute guy who said he'd call... and didn't? Maybe he lost your number. Maybe he's in the hospital. Maybe he's awed by your beauty, brains or success. Maybe he's busy with his annoying ex-girlfriend, or maybe HE EVEN FORGET THAT HE KNEW YOU. (Sorry that was me) Or maybe--He's just not that into you.

Wow. You know, I felt like I was slapped in the face when I read it. Because, somehow it's... true. I wonder why I'm waiting on this jerk. There's no guarantee that someday he'd call me and say the L word. Why don't I have fun? Why don't go out with others? There are bunch of good guys out there, aren't there? There isn't anyone that can guarantee he's also waiting for me. What if actually he already has new girlfriend and he's having fun with her? What if he already fell for another girl?

You know, I've waited for so long. Maybe not that long. But we've through so many obstacles. Annoying ex(es), backstabber, stalking friends, a-NOT-SO-SUPPORTING-WELL-YOU-CAN-CALL-HIM-BFF-SLASH-BEST-F*ING-FRIEND, etc etc etc. Why should this end up like this? Well, life's not a fairytale. But after all these stupid things, why don't this end up with a happy ending?

But no, I can't. I've tried to move on and I can't. Guess why? When I started to think about that cute neighbor, or maybe annoying-but-sweet old friend, you ALWAYS call me, or text me and say that you miss me and stuff. WHY IS IT ALWAYS LIKE THAT? It keeps repeating. Making a pattern and I can't escape.

Hm. Sorry if this post is a little bit too emotional or whatever you said. I just.. realized that if we're soulmate (yes, I DO believe in soulmate) there will be a way for us to be together.

You know, I LOVE drama. :D

...

Sorry I haven't posted anything lately. LAZYYYYYYYY! :D Watched Twilight (again?) and He's Just Not That Into You today. Well, Ben Affleck is hot. He's a hottie. And he's hot. And hot. And hot. And Jennifer Aniston is beautiful. And she's lucky, well not her I mean the character she played in He's Just Not That Into You. She's lucky to have such a great boyfriend. I wish I have one.. -.-

Thoughtful mode.

Adieu! :D

Short Update

Just got back from Science Camp.
I'm back maaaaaaan! :D

Anyway I just watched Garuda di Dadaku. Review later!

Reality

We're confused. We don't know what to do. But life is about options. It's not about the right thing to do. After all, everyone has their own paradigm. And there's no 'right or wrong'. If you choose your way, and you go through it better than you would if you choose mine, it's okay. Well, let's hope that's the best option for you.

I know how it feels to be you. I have felt like that before, maybe mine was even worse. Here's my suggestion :

Don't run away from the reality. Face it. Be ready.

It's About You

You.
Didn't even say goodbye.
You.
With your broken smile.
You.
Ceasing to fly.
You.
Reaching too high.
You.
Fall and cry.
You.
Searching for light.
You.
Trying to deny the truth.
You.
Trying to struggle.
You.
Facing life.
You.
And all your flaws.

You,
don't know what's waiting inside.

And After All...

You're my wonder wall.

A Letter to a Stranger

Hey there.
We used to know each other. So I think I should introduce myself again.
My name is Ajeng and I'm 12 turning to 13.
I am a drama queen and you knew it.
I don't have many friends, but I have a few close friends.
I cry easily and almost everyone's annoyed because of that.
And I fall for a stupid cruel boy.
And I can't get up.
And I can't move on.
It's you.

Nothing

Sorry fellas, I haven't posted anything lately. My final exams just finished about... 6 hrs ago. And I still got speaking test from LIA tomorrow. Shoot. My friends are going to go to Citos tomorrow, but I can't go because of this frigging LIA.

In the mood for playing The Sims Urbz. And going to mall alone. Maybe Friday I'll go to mall alone. (Going to watch Garuda di Dadaku, or maybe Star Trek)

NOT in the mood for speaking test. Meeting Mr. Desmal, my teacher in LIA. He's kind, but oldskool. Well, since he's like 60-something I think that's normal.

Life sucks. I am NOT relieved even though I have finished my final exams. I am NOT happy even though my piano teacher can't teach today, so I'm free now. I don't know. There's something wrong here, I guess.

Simple Step

We can stop by a while, and figure out what's stopping us. You're feeling pissed, I'm feeling pissed, and actually everybody is. We're just trying to ignore the stupid simple fact that we hide. To be one, we have to be tolerance. To be one, we have to face the ups and downs together. You know what? Those are BS (sorry Dinda I use the same word). It starts from a simple step, that leads to another. To be one, we simply just have to realize that we're one.

Current Crush!

Just finished Boys Before Flowers. YEAAAAAAAY! I really really really really  love this drama! Can't wait to watch the after-story. :D

Current crush : F4. Why?

1. They are cute.

2. They are very cute.

3. They are very very cute.

4. OH MY GOD THEY ARE SOOOOOOO CUTE!

But if I have to choose, I'd like to choose Kim Bum as my boyfriend. Come on, earth to Ajeng. -.-

I won't upload their photos, just search it on the net. If I upload their photos then you'll fall in love with them too. I can't have them by myself. LOL hahaha.

Sleepy Update

Going to go to sleep. Watched Drag Me to Hell with friends yesterday. Review later yeaaaaah.

Current mood : PMS, so I'm quiet grumpy.
Current obsession : FINISHING MY DANCE MOVEEEEEESSSSSSS!
I feel like : DVD Marathon with friends, sleepovers.
I don't feel like : doing exams, go to school (to see our lovely teachers), hearing my mom's babble.

EXAMS EXAMS PLEASE GO AWAY FROM MY LIFE. (closing my eyes, wearing a Javanese traditional clothes, and holding a keris)
DON'T YOU EVER DISTURB ME AGAIN.

For You pt. 2

I know I know. I don't have any idea for the post title. There are some points I want to tell you here.

First, plagiarism is pathetic. Although plagiarism is the highest compliment, it sucks to know you're plagiarized. Please, you have a brain, you're smart. You don't have to be a copycat to be cool. Everybody's cool in their own way.

Second, the spotlight does not always shine on you. If you feel like you’re not accepted because people tend to laugh or stare or talk to other people than laugh/stare/talk to you, it doesn’t mean that they don’t love you.

Third, you have to tolerance with other people. You don’t live your own world. Don’t be such a freaking headstrong girl. But you have to make a decision too, but be flexible.

Fourth, life is about options. People choose their lives. And they have to make a decision. Yes or no. You can’t say yes and no. It’s always yes, or no. You can’t have both, darling.

Fifth, being in the center of the attention doesn’t always the right thing to do. There are plenty of reasons. Maybe people will get bored and they’re even SICK of you, and they will walk away from you, and there you are, feeling alone, blablabla and other drama-things.

Sixth, think clearly before making decisions. Maybe sometimes you need to follow your heart but please, if you just do something to strike people’s attention, and that makes other people annoyed, or even worse, it makes you in danger, PLEASE. DON’T. DO. THAT.

Seventh, love people the way they are and they will love you the way you are. It doesn’t mean that you have excuses not to introspect yourself. It’s just a more complex sentence for ‘Don’t complain too much. Just look at yourself!’

Eighth, everybody hates a hypocrite, but surely almost everyone is a hypocrite. Hm still, it’s related to the seventh point.

Oh and ninth, we don’t hate you. We just want you to realize, this is life.

Long Time No Post

Hi fellaaaaas! Long time no post :)

I've been busy (ngah). I'll have my final tests, periodic and promotion test in LIA, final presentation in frigging LIA. Oh and I just finished my daily tests, but I haven't done my IT make up test. Shoot. OH. Plus that damn remedial(s) if I have to do that freaking tests.

My school held a Culture Day, and my class had to perform Betawi art. We performed Lenong, and it was a blast! HAHAHAHA. Maybe I should upload photos. But seriously I'm laaazzzzyyyyyy.

Adieu.