For You

You know, life is about options. You have to choose whether you want to be bad, or you want to be good. Pessimistic, or optimistic. Win or lose. You can't have both. You choose.

Trashy Talks

FYI I didn't go to school yesterday, so I have to do make up tests (THREE make up tests). Ugh.

I don't know why, I really miss dancing. Even if I'm not a pro dancer and I'm not so good at it. I haven't danced for a long long time.

AHAHAHAHA. You know what? Finally I can ALMOST split my legs! (not really, i mean about 10-15 cm from the floor but it's hard except you're a dancer or a CHEERLEADER, and I'm not)

Oh and I made some new dance moves. It's not finished yet, but I will finish it. I WILL YEAH I WILL. (?) But now I can't do this anymore :


Hm not exactly like that (I'm NOT a ballet dancer) but something like that ya ahaha.
insya Allah (if I think my new dance moves is good enough, and I have enough guts) I will post it. Ahahahaha.

Whatever

Whatever. I want to post something but I'm blaaaaaank.

I did bad things and I said sorry.
I messed up and I feel weary.
But I get up because I know
Everybody messes up and is full of sorrow.
I was drowsy and enervated.
But I know now that I'm strengthened.
Many people treat me discourteously.
But who cares because I have my faith in me.
Because everybody's just the same.
They did wrong things and do have shame.
That's the dare of you to say you're virtuous.
Let's say everybody knows that they're nefarious.
We fall, we crawl, we're sinful.
We get up, we stand, we're hopeful.

I'm Not Angry, I Just Want to Shout

I want to shout right now but I can't. This sore throat is killing me. And here's the shout out.

IF YOU DON'T CARE SAY THAT YOU DON'T CARE. IF YOU DO CARE THEN PROVE IT. DON'T LIFT ME UP THEN BRING ME DOWN BECAUSE IT REALLY HURTS. IF YOU DON'T LIKE MY ATTITUDE SAY IT. IT'S OK. BUT SURE IT'S NOT OK IF YOU TELL LIES.

Oops. Sorry for the caps lock. Hehehe I was too lazy.

I don't hate those who hates me. I hate backstabber. No, you're NOT a backstabber, who said that? I mean, if you hate me then say it. You don't have to save it for yourself, or even talk about me behind my back. Because if I don't like your attitude I'll say it in front of your face, of course politely.

There's something you should know. I should've tell you sooner.
If you don't like me, it's ok. Say it. With good reasons. With good attitude. I'm not insulting you, I'm not angry with you. I'm just disappointed. And I'm also disappointed with a gardener that cut the grass in front of my bedroom, and the grass jumped into my bedroom (I know this is not important). Hey Mr. Gardener. Don't you have a better gardening tools? But it's okay hihi I'm not in the mood for being mad at him.

Okay backtothetopic. Say it. Maybe at first I'll be a little disappointed, or maybe I'll be quiet. But it's just a toughtful-time. I need to introspect myself. So, 3 words. SAY IT BABE. I'm not angry, believe me. And sorry for the caps lock.

Sick

Quick quick update. I'm sick. I have a sore throat and a very bad flu and I dont go to school today but actually I have 3 exams a day. Good.

Current mood : Lazy, disappointed but happy.

Current obsession : Updating my facebook status frequently.

I feel like : I want to yell at that girl. Yes, that girl. And I want to say 'IF YOU DON'T CARE THEN SAY THAT YOU DON'T CARE. IT'S OKAY. DON'T LIFT ME UP THEN BRING ME DOWN. IT HURTS. And oh, I feel like losing my own best friend.

I don't feel like : doing my exams. Going to school.

Quote of The Day

The only thing that lasts longer than a friend's love is the stupidity that keeps us from knowing any better.

-Randy K. Millholland

Best Friends

This post is dedicated to my best friends.

Maybe I'm not a sweet kind of friend.
Maybe I often say things that hurts your feeling.
Maybe I only called you when you broke up with your boyfriend,
because I was not allowed to go to your house.

But one thing you must know, my friend.
I never want to hurt your feeling.
And sure, I really wanted to be on your side to cuss your silly boyfriend, and provide the shoulder to cry on.
But what can I say? I can't.
And even though I rarely say these words,
I really mean it.
Because you're all precious.
And last but not the least.
1 meaning. 3 words. 8 letters.
I HATE YOU.
Ahem. Typing error.
I love you.
And I mean it.

Oh, sorry. That's not one thing, that's a lot.

Angels & Demons

Watched Angels & Demons (actually almost a week ago). Too busy to post the review :)



This film is about a symbolist named Robert Langdon (Tom Hanks, played in Da Vinci Code) that's called by the church (AGAIN??). The Pope died and the four preferitti (primary hopeful for the papacy) is kidnapped by an anti-catholic organization named Illuminati. Strangely though, Illuminati is already extinct. The killer leaves clues that says that every hour one of the preferitti will be killed. Robert Langdon and Vittoria Vetra travel throughout Rome to reveal the truth (I know I know, my language is too LEBAY)

My opinion? 4 OUT OF 5 STARS!

This movie is AMAZING! TWO THUMBS UP! :))) Hm this is so not a cheesy movie so you have to think if you watch this film. But I haven't read the book actually, and am going to read it. But I'm sure the book is even much much better. So maybe (MAYBE ya) if I watch this movie when I already read the book I'll give 3 stars, or 2.5
But in my opinion, Angels & Demons is much much much much better than The Da Vinci Code (the movie I mean). Hm too lazy to write much.

xo. Ajeng.

I Wonder...

If forgetting you even makes any differences for my life. Will it be better?

Sorry I'm in the mood for dramatic posts.

Empty Hully Gully

You know, I use histats. In that website, the data shows that in last 30 days there are 358 page views and 232 visitors, and108 new visitors. But why don't they fill my cbox? WHY? WHY????? (dramatic cry)

Does histats usually tell lies? (as if it is a living thing)

So please, I'm BEGGING you. If you read my blog, then fill my cbox hehehehe. If you want to exchange link, tell me okay? Because I'm wondering if there are so many people visit my blog everyday (okay, not SO MANY, but they DO visit my blog) why is my cbox is empty gully gully hully bully creamy dippy doo?

xo Ajeng

Promoting Sinta!

Hey felllaaaas! Quick update, I had a so-so day. Ate a cup of very yummy J.Cool with PEACH! And oh. Tomorrow I'll go to friggin' school again. Oh gawd I really really really 9999x miss my best friends! But I. HATE. TO. STUDY. AND. MEET. THAT. ANNOYING. TEACHERS. AGAIN. Huh. I'm sure almost every student missed their best fellas but hates their annoying and fussy and oh-so-vintage-I-mean-very-very-not-flexible-and-so-old-skool-in-a-bad-way teachers.

And oh! I forget my TRULY FROM HEART OBJECTIVE (now I sound like my bio teacher) :

...drum roll please...

To promote my bestbestfriend's blog! YEAAAY!

Her name is Sinta, she's a great great great friend, she's BEAUTIFUL (I mean it), funny, and smart. Her blog is somehow funny in her own way, meaningful in a simple way (you know, there are a few person that can make something really touchy without using such words). Please, DO visit it, okay? hihihi.

Sinta, I know there aren't many people that visit my blog but if this post can make someone visits your blog, I'm glad hahaha.

and for ALL the readers, pardon my english. I know I love to post in english but it doesn't mean that I'm good in english. It's just one out of infinite ways to practice my english hahaha. So sorry if there are grammar errors, or maybe my vocab isn't that much, or blablabla. Okay?

Hehehe nite fellas.

I Don't Give a Damn, You Know

Please stop disturbing my life. Mind your own business. I said no, and that's my decision. Don't you come to my life and pretend like nothing happened. But something happened between us, and I won't change my mind. I haven't changed my mind. I don't need your guilty feelings, and you don't have to say sorry. Because it won't change anything. There's a scar and even time heals, but it's too soon for the scar to be healed. You always do this and that and say sorry, and do that again. I'm tired of facing you. Don't turn around, and don't make this even worse. It's worse than it sounds, believe me. You need to know that I don't need much of anything, especially you. It's not differences that makes me sick of you, I accept differences. But your behavior really sucks (sorry) and I'm sick of it. It's not that I don't have bad side but please you're alive, you communicate, you need tolerance and sympathy and empathy. You're not living your own land. You hate to think you're hurting me. But please, where's your empathy? But no, I'm not hurted anymore. I don't give a damn, you know.

My FAVORITE OF THE FAVORITE Quotes

From every wound there is a scar, and every scar tells a story. A story that says, I survived.

-Anonymous

If you let nothing happens, then nothing happens.

-Dori (Finding Nemo)

Doubt is not a pleasant condition, but certainty is absurd.

-Voltaire

Part of the pleasure of friendship : Trusting without absolute evidence and then being rewarded for the trust.

-David Shore

Evil when we are in its power is not felt as evil but as a necessity, or even a duty.

-Simone Weil

Any great truths can--and eventually will--be expressed as a cliche--a cliche is a sure and certain way to dilute an idea.

-Solomon Short

I'm Gonna Post A LOT of Quotes Of The Day

It's not true that life is one damn thing after another; it's one damn thing over and over.

-Edna St. Vincent Millay

You may not end up where you thought you were going, but you will always end up where you were meant to be.

-Anonymous

We only hear what we want to hear, we only see what we want to see. Until reality hits.

-Anonymous

If it's meant to be, things have a way to working out.

-Anonymous

Hold

Izza (I) Me (A)

(I was talking to her via phone)

A : He yaudah sana lu ngesot ke rumah gue doooong bosen nich ai ai.
I : Tapi keadaan tak memungkinkan nih mai sepupu. Gue disuruh nganter adekkiuwww.
A : Heeeeeeeeeee reserese. Lagian ngapain coba ya kemaren gue pake les segala. Jadi kaga main dah.
I : Iya lu ngapain sih les segala.
A : Gue kesel dah za. (mencet mencet tombol hold) Bentar ya za, tunggu (hold) ada lagunya nggak?
I : Nggak. Lo mencet hold ya tadi?
A : Iya. YEYE TELPON GUA BISA DI HOLD!!
(tau tau ada lagu mirip tukang es krim sumpah)
I : TELPON GUA ADA BUNYINYA. APELU?
A : He? Gua kira tukang eskrim. NGIRI GUA MAU YANG ADA BUNYINYAA ZAAAAAAAAA!
I : Nenenenennenenene (hold lagi)
A : Tai.
I : (hold lagi)
A : Apedah lu za.
I : Telepon gua bisa diganti2 loh bunyi holdnya (terus kedengeran pencet2an gitu, eh bunyinya masih sama)
A : MALU GUA SIH KALO JADI LU ZA WKWKWKWKWK.
I : Yee serius ada Ballade Pour Adeline lagi jeng.
A : Alah telepon gua juga bisa (terus gue lari ke piano terus main Ballade Pour Adeline.
I : Ye dasar. NANANANANANA (nyanyi lu za?)
A : Aelah tahik. TUKANG ESKRIM LU. (hold gue yang ga ada bunyinya)
I : Emang lu doang bisa hold? gue malah ada bunyinya. (hold izza yang kayak tukang eskrim)

Jadilah sepanjang telepon dipenuhi hold. Maaf nggak jelas,pake bhs indonesia lagi. Ancur lu jeng.

Conclusion :
Telepon gue holdnya kaga pake bunyi. Telepon Izza holdnya bunyi tapi kayak tukang es krim.

Alba Pastilles

Right now I'm eating Alba Pastilles.

Hm, Alba Pastilles is a pastilles (stupid). Old skool pastilles. But it's really really delicious and fresh. Anyway alba pastilles is like this :




Yum! :)

Wishes

Tired.

Devastated.

Broken.

I know this is wrong.

Waiting on a ruin with a lump of hopes.

But as you see, I'm a sad sack of wishes.

Unite in bones.

Sounds naive, sounds stupid.

You know, heard that before.

Waiting on a jerk that makes me broken.

But I wonder if forgetting you even makes any differences.

I'm making excuses.

Not to forget you.

Not to forget EVERYTHING.

Everyone knows that.

I'm waiting for a miracle in ruins.

Hoping for hopes.

Wishing for a glance.

Standing up for a chance.

You think it's time to give it up.

But no, I'm not giving up.

I think it's time to figure out.

What's stopping us.

What's stopping you.

We can't breath easily.

We can't even see each other more than a sad glance.

And I know this lump is killing us.

Is this what you've waited for?

Is this what you've dreamt of?

Please just answer with yes or no.

I don't need your infinite excuses.

If you want to even up the score, just do it.

Just so you know, I know all the things.

Even if it's way too late.

Do you know what I'm seeking for?

Truths and answers.

I think it's not that hard for you.

Just to say yes or no.

So please don't leave me hanging on.

And you know what?

The path is clear if you're ready, now.

Do You Know?

-Enrique Iglesias

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can’t get it to speak
Maybe if I knew all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I’m standing on the edge and I don’t know what else to give.

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

How can I love you?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
If you just don’t talk to me, babe.

I flow through my act
There's a question: Is she needed?
And decide all the man I can ever be.
Looking at the last 3 years like I did
I could never see us ending like this.

Seeing your face no more on my pillow
Is a scene that’s never ever happened to me.

But after this episode I don’t see
You could never tell the next thing life could be

Bukan Cinta Biasa

I watched Bukan Cinta Biasa with my family aahaquhnureaxdmgfklar

The film was about a 80's rocker named Tommy, who was IS a playboy. He was surprised to death (nooo i'm just exaggerating) when a 16-yrs-old girl named Nikita showed up in his house, and said that she was his daughter. Nikita had to stay in Tommy's house because of her mother, which is Tommy's ex girlfriend, had to go to America, but Nikita had to finish her school. Sooo, Tommy had to be a father whileeee he had a very very shabby and not-too-sexy-and-trying-to-be-sexy girlfriend named ANGEL (yes another devil named angel) played by JULIA PEREZ. Yeaaah so just watch this movie to find out.

1.5 stars out of 5.

Quiet food for Indonesian movies. Actually this is GOOD if we compare it with Susuk Pocong, or Pocong Kamar Sebelah, or Pocong Poco Poco, or whatever. But there are some ewww factors in this film:

1. JULIA PEREZ. Go to your momma's a**. Actually she's not that bad, if she's not exploiting her BIG BIG breast and puh-leaaaase get a life BRA! (sorry)

2. The dialogue was... cliche. So teenlit. Lebeeeeeey. For example :

N : Tapi aku nggak mau pergi! Blah blah blah noAOFASF

T : Tapi cinta tak harus memiliki... etc etc etc.

Pleaaaaseeee! Hello, we're in 2009, not 1970! Just make it like an everyday-dialogue. Don't use such a 'lebay' word. There are some scenes that is suppose to be tearjerking, but because of this ew factor, turned out to be a laughjerking scenes.

But overall, the film was quiet good. I give 1.5 stars out of 5, and I'm sure I'll give infinite middle fingers out of infinite middle fingers if I watch Pocong pocongan or whateverrrrr.

Nothing Muccccchhh Baby

Long time no post haha. I'm enjoying (huh not really) a one-week holiday. Finally.

Monday : With my motheeeer baby. Went to many places. and I went to a mall (as if we can call it a MALL because it is so gavl, whatever) But there are so many good things with good price there! I bought a t-shirt for IDR 50.000 (yes, 50.000) but the tee is sooooo comfortable ahuahuahua. Oh and I watched Click.

Tuesday : Nothing much. Attended english course, chatted with friends, blabla. Watched 10 Things I Hate About You. (Alm. lol) Heath Ledger was cuteee! And he looked cute with Julia Stiles.

Wednesday : Piano course. Watched A Walk to Remember (again??) for the 10000000000000000000000th time. And still, I cried. Watched There's Something About Mary (havent finished the movie). Watched Bukan Cinta Biasa with family. I'll write the review.

Thursday (today) : Watched Angels&Demons with sister. Had a very nice cup of J.Co Fro-yo with peach, kiwi and longan toppings. Yum! Befriend a 'mas-mas' from Hop Hop. (?)

Tomorrow? Idk, yet. Maybe I'll do my homeworks. Screw school.

Update

Current mood : Lazy. Argh I have to attend a friggin' piano course at half past 5. I want to watch A Walk to Remember again.

Current reading : The Da Vinci Code (yeah)

Current Listening : Only Hope, Someday We'll Know

I feel like : Hell. Bored. Lazy.

Time

I have nothing to write...

My period cramp is killing me even though it's already a week from my first day. Yeah, a week. I think there's an error.

Watched Click yesterday, and I cried. Actually it's a comedy movie, but the moral of the story is really really reaalllly good. Watch it, and discover the meaning of life. (ahauhauhuahua) But really, you have to watch it. I cried like a baby when I was watching this movie. I remember a quote (one of my 'quote of the day', i wrote it and posted it here) 'People warn you about not to let golden hours slip by, but somehow it's golden hours because we let them slip by' Hm, actually it's not like this. I forget. -.- But more or less, the main idea is like that.

Maybe, watching movies and popcorn war seem stupid, but surely you will miss the time you can do that kind of activity with your friends, or family, or boyfriend. Actually I've ever felt that way. You know, I posted something about a place called Chopstick. When I was a 6th grader, I often visit that place, and that was like just another routinity. But now, going to Chopstick is a very veeeerrryy special activity.

I mean we can't get back to the old times, we can't buy it, we can't change times we waste. Simple things are actually BIG if we let them slip by. So, use it wisely.

Quick Updateeee

Just a quick update, I went to Malam Keakraban PKS yesterday and the day before. I'm too lazy to post something about it haha.

Current mood : Lazy, panic panic panic. -__-

This week's overall mood : So-so, not really excited.

Wishlist for now : Pleaseeee silly friggin period, go away.

Award

Anisa and Sinta gave me an award.  Thank you honeeeeeeeey! :)

RULES :

1. Put this award ASAP. Maybe in your new post

2. Tag this award to people as many as you like

3. Mention 5 of your favorite blogs with the reason :)

4. Mention the person who gives you this award

And the lucky ones are...

1. Astrid

2. Dinda

3. Mia

4. Dll. Males. -___-

Alice's Adventure in Wonderland

OH. MY. GOD. I'M DYING TO BUY THESE BOOOOOOKS!!!!!!




Alice's Adventure in Wonderland, and Through the Looking Glass. THE ORIGINAL VERSION.

I bought one, but not the original one. It was changed into a more cheerful, and entertaining story. I REALLY REALLY WANT THE ORIGINAL VERSION, and I'm sure no one's selling it now. Secondhand book is okay, as long as I can still read it.

There's gonna be the movie, that's directed by Tim Burton (whoa, my sister should be happy), and I've watched the 1972 movie. It was scary (yes, scary. and oh anyway, i was 8) and thrilling. YOU. SHOULD. WATCH. IT.

Anyone, please buy me those books. or at least if you know where to buy it, please tell me, ASAP!

Quote of The Day

Here is the test to find whether your mission on Earth is finished : if you're alive, it isn't.

-Richard Bach

Kidzania and Bloop T Shirt

I went to Kidzania with Izza, Lejla, Ratri, Ewa, Basya and Fadly plus Om Apen yesterday haha. On Saturday I went to Lejla's house because her grandfather died (sob sob). And Ratri had a sleepover in her house. They planned to go to Kidzania on the next day. Soooooo, I WANT TO GO TO KIDZANIA TOO (with Izza). 

I was too lazy to get out of my (mother's) bed. So I was still asleep until like 8.30 am. Aaaand when I woke up... TA-DAH! Izza was standing next to me. WTF? Ahuhauhauhua. So we went to Kidzania by taxi (my mom didn't want to drive us to kidzania). Auhauhuauuisuahhhuahuhu. We had a blast of fun. I wore my Bloop Tribute t-shirt and my colorbox jeans, and 5 PEOPLE ASKED ME WHERE I BOUGHT THIS T SHIRT. Ahuahua.

First person:

Mas-mas (wtf?) Flight Simulator. (M) Me (A)

M : Mau jadi pilot?

A : Sure.

M : May I see your t shirt?

A : Okaay.

M : John Lennon, Tupac Shakur, etc etc (murmuring)

A : Hm?

M : Beli dimana?

A : Of course in Bloop. -.-

M : Ooooh, pernah belanja di Endorse?

A : Yaaa.

Second person-the fifth person:

Mas mas Tempat Bikin SIM (M1 M2 M3 M4) Me (A)

M1 M2 M3 M4 : Bu? Bu?

A : Yeah?

M1 : Sini deh bu.

M2 : Iya bu.

(jalan)

M3 : Tuh kan kaosnyaa beneer.

A : Kenapa ya?

M1 : Beli dimana bu?

A : Di Bloop maaaas.

M4 : Oh yayayya di tebet kan?

A : Nggak di kebon sirih.

etc. etc. etc.

What's with my bloop t shirt? -_-

Sorry for My Jerky Actions

Hey.
Have you ever think about others' feelings? It sucks facing an egoistic person like you. I've tried to be better, and improve my bad characters (like you said to me) But I don't see your efforts. Everybody has bad characters, so do I, so do YOU.

At first I tried to be patient, maybe that's your character and it'll be better as time goes by, because you get older and wiser. But please, would you think from others' perspective? I'm sure you'll feel pissed off if you're treated like that. And stop blaming me from your faults, or maybe others' faults or maybe our faults. If you're angry with me, please stop saying cusses to me, DON'T EVEN TRY TO SLAP ME, or hit me. You know, life changes. Maybe now you're the superior one, but who knows? And I'm trying not to hold grudges to you, but I can't. I'm sorry. Because all the scratches and pains you have left, maybe it can be cured but not now. And not so soon.

I don't want to make new problems so don't explode in front of me and do all those fkkn things, again. You know, our life has made some kind of patterns. It keeps going over and over again, and I'm still waiting for the pattern to stop. Please, I'm tired. And sorry for my jerky action, posting this post, because I don't have enough guts to say this in front of your face.

Adieu.

Once

I watched Once yesterday night.



The film was about a Dublin guitarist, singer and songwriter who makes a living by fixing vacuum cleaners in his dad's Hoover repair shop by day, and singing and playing for money on the Dublin streets by night. An (unnamed) Girl is a Czech who plays piano when she gets a chance, and does odd jobs by day and takes care of her mom and her daughter by night. Guy meets Girl, and they get to know each other as the Girl helps the Guy to put together a demo disc that he can take to London in hope of landing a music contract. During the same several day period, the Guy and the Girl work through their past loves, and reveal their budding love for one another, through their songs. (i copied this from imdb)

This is an indie movie, you can see it from the lighting, the angles, etc etc. So if you love a blockbuster movie this is a crap. But if you love indie movie (hell yeah i LOVE indie movie. I love MOVIES) this movie is a blast. FYI it won an OSCAR for Best Achievement for Music Written for Motion Picture for the soundtrack, and other 14 wins and 18 nominations. WOW. And really, the soundtracks are WONDERFUL AND GREAT! I guess this movie wasn't made to be a blockbuster, it's not really commercial (yeah because it's an indie movie, silly) and the story is NOT commercial. The ending is realistic, and it's not a kind of you-can-guess-the-ending-from-the-start movie. It's realistic.

Oh, and independent-movie-LOVERS. (lovers? whew) YOU. MUST. WATCH. THIS. FILM. This is a good indie movie, but i'm sure for those who love major movie (what's the opposite of indie movie?) this is a crap, and this movie doesn't have a point. SINCE I'M A BIT WEIRD AND INDIE (not really girlzzz but I want to write this because it sounds good) SO I REALLY LOVE THIS MOVIE, ESPECIALLY THE MUSIC. Oh and for those who love music very much, watch this movie. The soundtracks are won.der.ful.

Starring :

Glen Hansard
Marketa Irglova
Gerard Hendrick
Alastair Foley

Director: John Carney

Tagline: (I LOVE THIS TAGLINE!) How often do you find the right person?

Traffic Sign

You Are CURVES AHEAD

When you're confronted with a problem, you take it on immediately - but with your eyes wide open. You deal with stress well. You take things as they come, and you don't panic. In fact, you often enjoy challenging situations. Difficulty makes you feel alive. You are alert and observant. You notice every twist and turn in the road.

What Street Sign Are You?

Bored

I'm bored. Ah anyway I just watched No Reservations.

Current mood : I'm feeling weird, bored, and am not in the mood for posting a review of No Reservations.

What happened today : A periodic test in LIA (the writing part was like hell), a final listening test from Mr. Arif, being eaten by a fkkn MOSQUITO, and I cant sleep i think i'm gonna watch Once, or any chick flick movies, and I just watched the thailand version of Shutter with Citra, Mia, Sinta, dll.

This week overall mood : CHICK FLICK AND TEEN FLICK WEEK! Hahaha.

Only Hope

There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But you sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

A Walk To Remember (yyyyyyyy)

I watched A Walk To Remember yesterday. The film was GRRREEEEEAAAAT! Really really GRREEEAAAT! Okay, A Walk to Remember is a really girly movie, so I think those who don't enjoy teen-flick-and-drama-movies won't enjoy this great movie. Really, I almost cried when I watched this movie. Okay, I CRIED. I CRIED. AHUHAHUAUA This movie is really really romantic. RO-MAN-TIC. Overload romance (hahblah). AHUHAUHUAHUSIAOHMFWHENIEWGYMTFDW. Here's the synopsis.

In Beaufort, North Carolina, a prank on a student goes terribly wrong and puts the student in the hospital. Landon Carter, a popular student with no defined plans for the future, is held responsible and forced to participate in after-school community service activities as punishment, which include starring as the lead in the school play. Also participating in these activities is Jamie Sullivan, the reverend's daughter who has great ambitions and nothing in common with Landon. When Landon decides he wants to take his activities seriously, he asks Jamie for help and begins to spend most of his time with her. But he starts to develop strong feelings for her, something he did not expect to do. The two start a relationship, much to the chagrin of Landon's old popular friends and Jamie's strict reverend father. But when a heart-breaking secret becomes known that puts their relationship to the test, it is then that Landon and Jamie realize the true meaning of love and fate.

Starring:

Shane West (he's hot!)

Mandy Moore

etc etc.

THIS IS A MUST-WATCH MOVIE! (ahuhaua bahasaaaa)

Ouch

Lately I like making poems. Those poems aren't good. I'm not a poet, so sorry. And anyway I read a poem titled Hurting in The Present for Persevering The Past.

Ouch. The title slapped me. Wow.

An Unseen Bond

Voiceless communication

Not a word came from your mouth

Not a word came from my mouth

It's hard to describe

A bond between us

And it's unseen

But we can feel it

Let us remember the dreams we share

Can you recall our BFF promise we made?

You're a bestfriend of mine

That's the way it should be

And let it goes the way it is

For My BFF that's usually not allowed to go on the net.

Quote of The Day

Just because friendship fades, it doesn't mean that the love dies. Sometimes it just has to wait.

- Tara Simms

It Can't Be Erased

Only to vanish once

Would you like it to happen again?

No? Then hold it tight

It's not about being close to each other

Please look at me with your minds

I'll always be there

There were some difficult moments

Did we stand through it?

Hopefully we did

But somehow, there are ups and downs

Now we're back in the track.

Playing together

Or maybe just fooling around

And sharing our dreams

There's a bond

Should we keep it?

No, we shouldn't

Because hopefully it can't be erased

For my bestfriends. I love you all. :)

I HATE MOSQUITO

I HATE MOSQUITO.

Please

Please God forgive my sins.

Friends, forgive my bad character, and all i've done to you.

Family, forgive my annoying attitude.

p.s. I LOST MY MIND, OFFICIALLY.

Yes, I am.

Am I annoying and too 'lebay' and too 'cengeng' and as if I have a friend that has the same character with me, I even can't stand her?

YES. I am. (i mean it. i'm annoying. drop dead annoying and someone think that i cant get any better, not you! hihi. bukan astrid ya, kalo astrid gr soalnya astrid pernah bilang gini.)

So, sorry girls if my bad characters annoy you. Sorry.

I Lost My Mind and I'm Going Crazy

Hahaha when I read my blog, especially the may edition (blahs) I realized that I haven't posted any 'Quote of The Day'! Ahuahuaha okay then I'll post some.

Oh and anyway what do you look for in a friend? What if your friend is annoying? Hm well, it's not a friend. I mean what if your bestfriend is annoying? Will you tell her or you dump her? And if you dump her, will you regret?

It's hard seeking for a real bestfriend. Maybe you can find a kind-hearted and warm and trustworthy person, but what you need in bestfriend is a comfort. You have to find a person that suits you. Suits you doesn't mean that she has to be similar or have maany same interests with you. Your heart knows. What if he/she doesn't really suit with you even though she/he is very kind and blah blah blah? Let time answers that question ;) Sometimes we figure out something really important after a long long long time.

And anyway, if a person that really suits you is accidentally ANNOYING and SENSITIVE and LOVE TO EXAGGERATE ANYTHING and EXTREMELY MOODY and FEELS THAT SHE'S THE VICTIM and PLUS PLUS MANY BAD CHARACTERS that you're sure that if she has a friend that has the similar characters like her, she even can't stand that person, what would you do???!!! (asking in anger ahuahuhaa)

YOU DUMP HER? or you tell her slowly?

WHAT???? DUMP HER?????? WOW THAT'S REALLY A TRUE FRIEND BABY.

DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT FEELS TO BE LEFT OUT? NO? NO?????

WTF WTF WTF WTF WITH MY WORDS? WHAT AM I TALKING ABOUT? You know, I lost my mind. Yesterday I lost my mind and it's still lost now. So I'm sorry if this post is totally weird and unusual and hurt your heart or BLABLABLA i didn't mean it okay?

DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW IT HURTS TO BE LEFT OUT? TO BE ALONE IN THE MIDDLE OF A CROWD? JUST SO YOU KNOW, IT SUCKS.

SO PLEASE WHERE'S YOUR EMPATHY? 

Hahaha really this post sucks. No offends yaaaa. Please if I hurt your heart or whatever, I didn't make this post for hurting someone. I LOST MY MIND. I WAS AM OUT OF MY HEAD. I just write what's on my mind, my lost mind so please don't take it to heart.

Chick and Teen Flick

I bought a DVD yesterday. Oh and anyway I want to write lists of movie that I want to watch. I'm in the mood for chick-flick or teen-flick

- Once (the one I bought yesterday)

- License to Wed*

- My Life in Ruins*

- Sydney White*

- Ballet Shoes (just borrowed it from Citra)

- No Reservations*

- When Harry Met Sally*

- Good Luck Chuck (-_-) *

- A Walk to Remember*

- P.S. I Love You

-  Legally Blondes 3 (ROFLMAO)*

- Etc.

See? They're all almost the same. And really, I dont know why, I want to watch Legally Blondes 3.

* I'm going to buy it, really.

Rock and Roll

If they wanna rock they rock

If they wanna roll they roll

They can roll with the punches

Long as they feel like they're in control

If they wanna stay they stay

If they wanna go they go

They don’t care how they get there

Long as they get somewhere they know

Positive + Negative -

I'm trying to change my perspective to be more... positive. Blah.

Maybe I'm not a gothic-emo-kind-of-girl that thinks that life is useless, but I'm quiet a pessimistic person. But, MAYBE, my 'packaging' is not that pessimistic. And somehow it's fun being a pessimistic, because life goes your way. You know, things happen when you least expect it.

People say 'Hope for the best, prepare for the worst'. Sometimes when I tried to change my mind, and tried to think from the positive side things got worse. It didn't go my way. And I was hurted even more. So I made a conclusion to prepare for the worst, and do NOT hope for the best, but do NOT hope for the worst (do you think there's a person that hopes for the worst?), and do your best.

Some says that it's just the same as a bench-mark-degradation, but no, it's not a bench-mark-degradation, it's just... Preparing for the worst, because things don't always go your way. But I can't lie, of course there are some situations that was an exception. Like EVERYTHING related with him. Ahuahuaua silly. So I can't say that I was a real pessimistic person. But for a pessimistic, I'm quiet optimistic (ahuahua it's paramore's song).

But now, (since about a month or less  ago) I'm trying to look from the brightside. I'm trying to improve my badside, to be less sensitive, moody, and etc etc blah blahs. If I fail, let's just say it's life, there are ups and downs. 

I'm trying to forgive (even if it's kinda hard for me, and seriously it was really hard for me), to look things in the different way, to feel what others feels (read: more and more empathy). Ah, better me.

So the conclusion is, I'm trying to be better. And I'm trying to be more optimistic. And please, if you're my friend, help me through this change. And, will you try to fix your bad characters? If you really are my friend, then there are takes and gives. If I try to be better, then you have to try to be better (actually it's not like a drop dead theory, but these are the simple words). So, yeah. Please at least help me through this confusing condition, because my 'negative' side meets and crashes with my 'positive-oh-lala' side.

15 Things Guys Should Know About Girls

1. If you want to get our attention it doesn't mean that you have to get the whole class' attention.

2. We know when you stare at us. Actually it's fun knowing that you stare at us, it makes us feel like beautiful lol.

3. But surely when we have a bad hair day or a big zits in our face, dont stare at us even though you think we're still beautiful.

4. Don't see us like an object. We're not SOMETHING you adore, we're someone.

5. If you really like us, or love us, make an eye contact and say your feeling at the right time.

6. Try and try and try and try. Let us know that we're worthy to you. And believe us, we really are.

7. Don't talk about your exes in front of us.

8. If we're angry to you, let us know that you're trying so hard to apologize to us.

9. If we carry a heavy bag, or something, let us know that you're the guy to ask help to.

10. Don't act like you don't like us in front of your friends.

11. A bit show-off is okay. But too much? Yikes. We don't like a show-off boyfriend.

12. Compete with other guy to win our hearts.

13. Say 'take care' or anything encouraging and good and sweet. Don't say cusses to us.

14. Text us and tell us that you care.

15. Hold our hands when we cross the road.

p.s. make your own!

xx.

Text

A person texted me.

Asslm mlkm...

Slm knal...

my comment: i didn't reply it, ahuahuhaua.

Ni aku boy.

Aku dpt no dri mamank azum...

my comment: what the f? who the hell is mamank azum? ahahaha such a LOVELY AND UNIQUE name.

Knpah engga kenal yah?

Aku yg waktu it bwa sandal sma a udel.

ingt ga?

my comment: what is he talking about? really i dont understand.

Any ideas? Anyway if you want the number of this person just comment or fill my cbox. Adieu! :)

Tagged

What's your current obsession?

Current obsession? Maybe my iPod. This is weird, because I bought this iPod long long time ago and I'm obsessed with this thing since like, a week ago.

What's your weirdest obsession?

Doing a ballet dance in a swimming pool.

What are you wearing today?

A white shirt, blue tie, white skirt and a pair of black sneakers (my uniform).

What's for dinner today?

I don't know.. yet. Maybe I'm not gonna have a dinner. -.-

Why is today special?

Hm, maybe because it's the first time of school after a week holiday.

What would you learn to do?

Many things! Teleportation, moving things with my mind, hypnotizing people, ahuahuahuahua.

What's the last thing you bought?

A plate of Alabama Spicy Chicken Steak from Sizzler. Yummy!

What are you listening to right now?

It's amazing, from a radio in my head.

What is your favorite weather?

Depends on my mood.

What is your most challenging goal right now?

I want to pass my 7th year with good scores, and I want to be able to swim in a 2m swimming pool (seriously i cant)

What do you think of a person that tagged you?

Hm, i dont know.

If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?

Australia, or America (i dont know yet in what city it'd be)

What would you like to have in your hand right now?

Hm, a magic wand that can do EVERYTHING. Or maybe money, or maybe unlimited credit cards.

What would you like to get rid of?

School (I mean school with teachers in front of the class, not school with NO teachers and seniors so I can fool around there)

If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hours, where would it be?

Definitely Australia.

Which language do you want to learn?

Hongarian and france and japanese and korean and germany. Oh, and SUNDANESE!

What do you look for in a friend?

there are 3 qualities: honest, loyal, kind. hihihi.

Who do you want to meet in person?

There are 2 people. Him, and my lovelydovey bff.

What's your favorite type of music?

Pop is okay, and old songs are wonderful.

What's the favorite piece of clothing in your closet?

An oversized t-shirt and shorts (it's my pajamas)

What is your dream job?

PSYCHOLOGIST!

Any favorite models?

Agyness Deyn, Irina L, Adriana Lima?

If you have £100 what would you spend it on?

Books, clothes, gadgets, gifts, and for my savings.

Favorite designers?

Heh? Maybe Kate Spade for bags, or Marc Jacobs for clothes, but I dont know.

Fashion pet peeve?

-_- real fur

Do you admire anyone's style?

Yes of course. Peaches&Pixie Geldof, Georgia Jagger, Chloe Sevigny, Cory Kennedy, etc etc etc.

Describe your personal style!

Simple. (or too simple?) I'm all about jeans and tees.

And the lucky ones are...

1. Astrid

2. Izza

3. Sinta

4. Nchum

5. Kak Thia

6. Sha!

7. Tinah

8. Anyone, if you want to take this, take it. :)

xx.

Ajeng.

Suckumentary Sucks

Right now I'm making a documentary film. No, it's SUCKUMENTARY.

SUCKUMENTARY SUCKS. My moviemaker can't play the video. Oh puh-leaseee I need a cool moviemaker software and a great partners and 1 month to make this silly documentary film about orangutan.

Chopstick

When I was still on yr6, I had a clique. No, I HAVE a clique. And NO, Chopstick is NOT the name of our clique. Even though we're apart now but we're still close :) The members are me (Ajeng), Langen, Lala, and Zahras. They are my BEST-EST FRIENDS ever. Oh gooooood they're always by my side hihi I love you guuuys muah muah.

Now let me explain. Chopstick is a name of a meadow (okay it's not really a meadow) near our school. And here's the history...

We were playing and fooling around because of my PE teacher didn't come. We chased each other, (we refers to my whole silly-yet-lovely class) and Zahras and I were so confused and too tired to run. So, we searched for the nearest place to chill out (blah). We found a little meadow (nah, not a real big green peaceful meadow like in The Sound of Music) near our school, and we sat down and had a great time!
The next afternoon, at about 11 a.m. (lunch time baby) we (now we refers to our gank, blah) went to that secret sacred place. And we had a reaaallllly2 great time. We can scream and curse things, life, GUYS, teacher, enemy, AHAHAHAHA. And that name popped out in our brains. Chopstick. AHAHAH that's the silly history. But really, whenever we lost our mind, or when one of us was in a bad mood or maybe one of us broke with her boyfriend, or ANYTHING bad happened to one of us, we went to that sacred place. And Chopstick is like this, more or less. And it's not that big, and NO MOUNTAIN, and it's not that beautiful but it's a great place to relax.





p.s. I MISS CHOPSTICK! I MISS MY ELEMENTARY SCHOOL! AND I MISS YOU GUYS ;)

:)))

Haha this is a candid picture of me, taken by Lala my bestbestbestbest friend in our (me, Langen, Lala, Zahras) favorite place, a meadow (okay it's not really a meadow) that we call 'Chopstick'. Why? I don't know hehehe. The name just popped out in our head so we call the 'meadow' Chopstick.

We were so tired after an exam (that lasted on SATURDAY), so we went there to relax. I was going to sleep with my bag (the red nike one behind me) as a pillow hahaha and Lala took this silly photo :) AHUAHUAHUA I MISS MY ELEMENTARY SCHOOL-TIME!

Beach

Taken by : thia sunarso
Where? : Near Pasir Putih, but it's not Pasir Putih Beach. It's not crowded, and so peaceful :)
When : Maybe when I was on yr6

Hahahaha I found this photo in my computer :)

Blogthings Commentary

Your Love Life is Like The Princess Bride

"Since the invention of the kiss, there have only been five kisses that were rated the most passionate, the most pure. This one left them all behind." For you, love is like a fairy tale - albeit a fairly twisted one. You believe romance is all about loyalty, fate, and a good big of goofy fun. (AHUAHUA BENERDAH) Your love style: Idealistic yet quirky (Idealistic?) Your Hollywood Ending Will Be: Perfectly romantic (AMINAMINAMINAMIN) -Ajeng

What Movie Is Your Love Life Like?

35,000 FT

Your Personality at 35,000 Feet Is Thoughtful and Contemplative

Deep down, you prefer spending time alone to spending time with others. You enjoy thinking more than talking. You are good with your place in the world. You are confident and comfortable with who you are. Your gift is relating to other people. You don't hide from your own emotions, and you are good at drawing other people out. You are inspired by what is possible. Real life is often too ordinary for you. It's very easy for you to feel happy. You can find peace with any situation.

The Personality Test at 35,000 Feet

Facebook

Ahuahuahua begau. I can't log in on my facebook. Holy facebook's crap. That holy boly facebook said that 'We can't blablabla cookies blablabla." You know, I'm not a hi-tech person and I dont know what cookie is. -_-

I Want Your Opinion...

Am I...
Serious or not?
Funny or crunchy? (wtf)
Thoughtful or not?
Warm or cool?
Silly or not?
Childish or mature?
Weird or normal?
Unique or mainstream? (it's just the same w/ the one above this. ah whatever)
Friendly or not?

Blablabla or not?
make your own opinion.

Please comment on this post. Thanks! :)

Silly

AHUAHUAHUAHUA.

I made a bowl of shiitake cream soup! YEAAAY I DID IT!
I edited a video using Windows Moviemaker. YEAAAY I DID IT!
I killed more than 10 mosquitos a day. YEAAAY I DID IT!
I texted my crush' best friend. YEAAAY I DID IT! (wtf?)
I chatted with my BFF after long time no chat lol. YEAAAY I DID IT!

I haven't finished my biology homework. OH NOOO I DIDN'T!